Fire Before Dawn

This was my motive, what I wanted, my desire, my yearning, my passion: to first and foremost, agreeably and willingly do all I could for her so she and I might move together towards, with and in accordance with, her-our-my happiness-passion-zest-fire.

All my uxory might simply be doing what I can to feed her fire and so feed our fire, for by moving in her happiness-desire direction we move in our happiness-desire direction.

That peace, that powerful frame of mind I want and seek for her but also for myself and my sake, is a beautiful, passionate, numinous moment of fire akin to standing safely upon the sun. It is when I am most happy and complete because being her ‘help mate’ is something that completes me. This fire is part of my function, my fulfilling purpose in life, part of who I am – and it is upon this fire I must learn to stand tall – to live, learn and love the things I am meant to while yet here on earth.
~ OH, Fire

My wife wishes to see me and hear my words – not see my words and not hear me, so as a rule she does not read what I write here where my ideas, surmisings and thoughts have their fullest exposition and expression. Yet I do keep her abreast of my essential desire and passion, and apropos of these past few culminating weeks of self discovery she and I have of late been having a wonderful conversation about our lives and love together.

So athough finally finding accurate and adequate symbols to express the love, passion and desire of my experience in our relationship has been truly beautiful, relieving and positive, I must say it pales in comparison to the excitement of sharing with her and the excitement of the road that lies before us.